For those who suffer from Depression

[zenemu]

I tend to get depressed when I have nothing to do, so the answer is simple, I always keep myself busy. Today for example I have been up nine hours and I have fitted three pullout steel units in the kitchen, debugged a Content Management Script for a friend, replaced the control board in my remote control gas fire,  cut the lawn, walked the dog and now I am going to settle down with a big mug of coffee and upgrade my  media centre which has some shiny new components waiting to be fitted.

When I do run out of things to do I read or write, programme, play with the dog or go out for a drive. I find sitting doing nothing incredibly dull and it makes my insomnia worse too.

[dhpmathmusic]

Music is my salvation when I am depressed; mind you, I am not an emo - but rather a very intense, emotional person. Music really affects me in emotional ways that can hardly be described.  When depression takes over, as a blanket suffocates the kitten who is having trouble reaching for that air but finally crawls out exhausted, I listen to the most depressing music I can find and have to cry for minutes, sometimes hours; fighting suicidal thoughts and other negative apparitions; upon doing so, I feel exhausted and relieved.  Within that time of desolation, I am immobilized, however, and have to hide somewhere in order to expunge the tears.  These depression attacks do not occur as often as they used to, thanks to medication and some therapy for which I have received, but when they do - as inferred from the aforementioned sentences, they can become incredibly intense.  Of course, riding my bicycle helps to prevent these monsters from invading my emotions, as it has been confirmed that exercise helps to elevate and regulate moods.